I never had a life. A childhood, young adulthood. I was denied that right. I just want to live a dignified life where I have my needs met and feel safe. Presently, I am a forced to "live" in a traumatic, disturbing, and abusive environment where I can't be myself and where there is nothing for me. A reality where my being and needs are invalidated and I am surrounded by evil in a place I don't belong. In my literal personal hell surrounded by the culture (third world), people, situations, energies that have traumatised and abused me since birth. A lifelong of trauma and abuse.