Actually, there are many different personalities and different kinds of lives they desire. Yet, none of them. I have an ordinary life. I escape reality by filling this ordinariness with fantasies. But I am also a realist. I sometimes experience emotions intensely, sometimes not at all. I don't understand this world. I'm afraid of what will and won't happen. I think I was actually alone. I had "acquaintances" rather than friends. Actually, we don't really need them. I mean, they're not really necessary. We should learn to be alone, and then make friends.