I'm going through a quiet time, reflecting less on how I failed in the past and starting to consider how to move forward and find a new purpose. I always knew inside I was an artist but I haven't given myself that.. permission I guess. I used to be very enthusiastic and smiley until.. I wore myself thin and eventually broke out of that.. mask.. I was coping but I didn't know. I spend my time doing a little gardening, a little soul searching.. asking my dog how he got to be such a god boy.. I've recently binged on wife swap videos on YouTube. I want to start painting and being more productive