I don't really know who I am right now. I made people laugh, people used to like me for my personality. Last few years I've spent most of my time trying to survive a traumatic relationship. I love camping, I love rivers, and I love peaceful environments. I don't leave my home, if I have to, I never go alone. I am waiting on a heart procedure. CPSTD I think is just been my life. Everyday I try, try so hard to be the mom my boys deserve. I have no one, and I just lost the last person I had, that I never thought I would.